sorry , repost ignore this post
[quote name=\'Lynette\']Oh f$%k....I have to be at work in two and a half hours.....I will be niether sober, nor happy to be there. but I\'ll be ok and the work will get done. \'cause thats what the f$%k I do....
Sometimes, I really f$%king hate my life.
I was feeling very happy and good about myself until a couple of hours ago.
I am going to smoke a cigarette so I don\'t kill anyone.
I will quit ...soon. count on it. I made it almost 5 days this time. No Prob....
Selfish MFer...saw me doing well and had to f$%k it up....
I\'ll be ok.
Too much Bacardi\'s tooo much bullshit and no sleep. Not a good combo....[/QUOTE]
Hey your doing great. Keep your head up, and know your well on your way to being a better person, dont let what other people say get in the way of your happyness. If theres one thing everyone on here has taught me its that. Tell yourself what you want, and let nothing get in your way of reaching that goal. I finally get that to sink into my thick head, and ive been less stressed, eating better, sleeping more, doing great in school, and just over all more happy. I have almost no free time because of school, work, and side jobs, but you know what im gonna be able to fix my car, start saving money for college, and my 66, and im gonna be going to school for what I love to do. Don\'t become dependant on booze to give you a temp relief from your pain. Ive seen people do it, ive seen it mess up peoples lives worse, when they thought they were at rock bottem, when in actuality they had a long way left to fall.
I\'m sure to get flamed cause im just a kid, turning 18, but theres one thing ive always been good at, thats listening, and observing people and taking note of it. Your to much of a wonderful person, and I can tell that from just online, and ive never met you!
Keep going! You\'ve come this far!!
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