sorry , repost ignore this post
Sorry in advance, I need to vent. You can read it, comment, be negitive positive, what ever you want. I jsut need to get it out.
Im so sick of everything lately. My mom has pushed for a long time to help me, and not until this year have I really put in the effort to help myself and go on with life. I got a job, all my grades are up to b\'s now. I\'m seeing a consouler to help me with everything as well. The problem now is I work wed, thurs, and fri 5 to around 11pm, and do school during the day. And sat and sun I work 11-5, so lately ive had very little social life, and have been working my ass off at work because they are thinking about promoting me from dishwasher after only 2 months. Ive been pushing at work, im making 190-250 a week, on top of working my ass off at school to get all B\'s. AND im still fighting to get my car fixed with the insurance company.
My stepmom, and my dad are happy that im not getting into trouble, my grades are up, im trying to be resposible for my bills and everything. But my mom has been nothing but negitive, I try to talk to her and she blows everything out of proportion. I missed the date for the FASFA cause I didnt know there was a dead line, never mind what to do with it, so I told her I figured she was gonna remind me and do it with me, and she freaks out saying I always blame everything on everyone or everything but me. I have done this in the past, but I havnt been. The last ticket I admitted it was my fault because I was careless and didnt pay attention enough. Ive been fixing my own car, ive been solving my own issues, but im still a friggen kid I cant do everything alone. Everytime im in a good mood, or feel good about everything some how she finds a way to make me feel like shit, and make me wanna give up. at this point im using that to motivate me, just because she\'s been pissing me off, saying im making her sick blah blah. She doesnt seem to understand all this has made me sick. I cant sleep much, I dont eat except maybe once a day, I have lost contact with most of my close friends. Like I talk to you guys on here more then everyone else now. I gave up careing bout finding a g/f but all my friends are talking to someone, screwing someone, or dating someone. I have no one.. I feel like im alone like I f$%king hate all this. I wanna move, but then I dont wanna start over again.
Idk what to do anymore. I try so hard and get no recognition and its sickening.